Propositum

I went through something rough. I let myself get put through something rough. It is my fault for staying in an abusive relationship but the ...

We have someone we want you to meet

Luz who had a friend who decided she was going to date a woman. This woman was a very successful athlete and a strong wild personality. Because of this, she had a crew of women that she hung around with and partied with. Luz, her friend, and the girlfriend had hung out a bit and the friend had complimented Luz on her beauty on several occasions in ways that a guy would not do to another man's woman unless he was looking to get his lip split.

At one point the three of them were messaging and the friend said that she and her girlfriend had someone they wanted Luz to meet. This was them trying to hook Luz up with one of their girlfriends. Luz replied, "Sounds great!" or something to that effect.

When I questioned Luz on it, she tried to play it off like it was a joke but it was not a joke at all. Because, later we were at a party with these women and I found out who the woman was they were trying to hook Luz up with. It was no joke and Luz was more than willing to check out some other woman romantically while she was with me.

But why would I fool myself into thinking this was just a joke. Why would I dismiss it convincing myself that her friends may have been serious but that Luz was joking. Looking back, I can see I was such a fool. I was a fool of my own making.