Propositum

I went through something rough. I let myself get put through something rough. It is my fault for staying in an abusive relationship but the ...

Receipt Hunting

One night when Luz was in the middle of one of her weeks long episodes, I went out with a few co-workers. My boss and I got there early and a couple from work joined us later. We have a few drinks and then we all left. It was a good time and nice for me to get out and chat with some people rather than going home and being treated like a pariah for another inexplicable reason.

A few days later Luz starts questioning me about who I was with. She was pressing so hard that I had to have my boss talk to her and tell her that he was with me that night. She was sure that I was out with a woman because the receipt in my pocket after paying that night had wine on it. Oddly enough, she knows I prefer wine over beer because it is just nicer to my tummy. She had gone through my pockets, read the receipt, and then in her mind again I was cheating on her. This went into another week or two of being treated like I had killed her cat.

Not only was it like this at this time, but she would bring it up later and even years later, and go into the same type of episode acting like I had cheated on her.

I had to be really careful with my receipts from then on because I knew she would try to interpret them to mean I was cheating on her. Because she was as paranoid and abusive as she was, I had to constantly be aware of what I was ordering if she was not with me.