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I went through something rough. I let myself get put through something rough. It is my fault for staying in an abusive relationship but the ...

You have no right to Cian

A few days after the window incident, when I had tired of her ignoring me and acting like I was someone she could not stand, I asked her why she was treating me like this. She started in on me again yelling that I never tell her what is going on. Her first example was that Thursday when I stayed out with Roark an hour longer than usual. When I reminded her that I had told her only 20 minutes after I found out, she screamed at me that that was not the only time. Then she brought up when I helped my mom install a window in her house a couple days before when I had been asked right at the time they needed me. Luz brought these up as examples and continued to try and tell me the same thing even though what she was claiming was undeniably false. She knew it but her rage took over like usual and she just kept screaming at me.

That night I was taking care of Cian out in the living room. He fell asleep and I set him down so I could go grab something from the kitchen. While I was in the kitchen, Luz came out of the bedroom, grabbed Cian, and then went back to the bedroom and closed the door.

Then the next night, we had had an argument. She was angry at me because I told her she had an anger issue (which I have brought up on several occasions). I was holding Cian and I had just gotten him to sleep. She had been back in the bedroom for a while, I guess stewing on what I had told her earlier. She came out from the bedroom to the living room and pulled Cian out of my arms. I was not going to play tug-of-war with our little one so I just let her take him. As she was walking back to the bedroom, I told her, "you can't do that. You can't just take him from me." Halfway to the bedroom she screamed at me, “You have no rights to him!” My son, Talon heard this and it was a sad discussion to have to have explaining what was going on to a 14 year old boy who loves Luz but doesn’t really know who she is.

She continued into the bedroom, slammed the door, and locked it so I could not be with Cian the rest of the night. Once again, she used that awesome baby to try to hurt me.