On Thursday, December 20 2018, I left home for work in the morning. That evening, like every Thursday, I got to hang out with Roark. Roark wanted a bit more time than usual to shop for Luz. So, he asked his mom if he could stay out later that night. She gave him an hour more. We called Luz shortly after that and told her we were going to be out just one hour longer than usual. When I got home that night I found Luz sitting on the bed holding Cian. At this time it had been about 14 hours since I had seen him and about 20 hours since I had held him. So, I was really missing him. I asked her if I could hold him. She would not look up at me. She did not even acknowledge that I had spoken. She just ignored me. Then I asked her what was wrong. She just said it had been really hard. I am not sure how. Cian is the best easiest baby I have ever known. But, somehow it was my fault and she was not going to allow me to hold my son whom I had not held for almost an entire day. I was going to have to wait even longer until she would allow me to hold him. And for what? What did I do to deserve to have my son kept from me? Once again she used him to try to hurt me.
So, I left her alone. I found my way in to see Cian and take care of him during the night like I usually do when she has not locked the bedroom door to keep he and I apart.
So, I left her alone. I found my way in to see Cian and take care of him during the night like I usually do when she has not locked the bedroom door to keep he and I apart.