You may have read in other posts how I thought it was best if we did not keep the other out of our phones. My theory was that the openness would help us not be jealous or worry. But often, as in this case, it led to trouble. And actually, this time was Luz looking over my shoulder as I was writing work messages to a product manager. I made a joke and sent a wink along with it. Luz saw this and immediately got enraged. She started telling me that I do not send any winks to anyone else and that I must be having an affair with this product manager. She was adamant about this and I told her that I send winks to anyone regardless of their sex. I just like to joke around. She would not listen to it. So, we went into another set of weeks of she treating me like I was a pariah, screaming at me, "get the fuck out of my life!"
I went through all my message and compiled all the winks I could find I sent to anyone at work. I quickly came up with 25 of them. I showed them to her and she still was convinced that the wink I sent to this product manager meant we had something going on. Like usual, I was pained and begged and pleaded and apologized and did everything I could do while she ignored me, moved to the side in the hallway if we were passing each other, left the bed at night when I came in. Weeks of pain all because I made an innocuous joke and sent a wink with it.
Once again, this is so embarrassing. What the hell is wrong with me that I would stay with someone like this?
